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Frost and Fire - Episode 10 - Chameleon Skin

There are some truths too quiet to say out loud. They live beneath the surface, dressed in competence and success, hidden behind the applause, the promotions, the practiced smile. This poem speaks to one of those truths—the relentless, invisible weight of never feeling good enough. Not because of failure, but in spite of achievement.

It's written without the word I, but make no mistake—it’s personal. For anyone who’s ever worn the shape the world asked for and still felt like an imposter beneath it, Chameleon Skin is for you.

Chameleon Skin

Not for lack of effort,
nor talent braided into bone.
The hands did what was asked.
The voice bent in every key.

Smiles were painted precise.
Mirrors practiced them well.
In boardrooms, applause.
At home, a quiet too vast for words.


Always the first in,
last to leave.
Deadlines dissolved
under fingertips worn thin.
Still—
not enough.

A name on plaques,
a corner office view,
the slow nod of respect
that never pierced the shell.
Each rung climbed
just another ledge
to stare down
the same hollow truth.

Set the bar—
then soared.
Raised it higher—
soared again.
Each victory
a glass that shattered
before it reached the lips.
The goal was never the goal,
only a shield
against the ache
of not being enough.

Love, when it came,
was held like breath underwater—
too careful,
too long.
Gifts misunderstood,
laughter echoing off walls
never meant to hold joy.

Even the good days—
and there were good days—
never settled into the chest.
Like trying to hold warmth
in a sieve.

Not for lack of trying.
Not for lack of wanting.
Only that the skin
was always borrowed.
Camouflage stitched
from expectation,
survival,
fear.

A shape that fit in every room,
yet never felt like home.


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